flavors of life

yOU

2007-03-19T09:17:00.000-07:00

Never wanted the Stars
Never shoot for the mOon
I like Them rIght wHere tHey Are
all I wAnTed Was YoU

someONES
just Only oNES

night, march 19 2007

The Silent Love

2007-03-14T20:24:00.000-07:00

Kita berjalan TERPISAH
tapi BAYANGAN kita berpelukan

kita berjalan di SIANG HARI
tapi BAYANGAN kita sembunyi dari Cahaya

Kita adalah DUA ORANG yang BERBEDA
tetapi bayangan kita berJIWA SERUPA

Bayangan kita adalah SEPASANG KEKASIH
yang BAHAGIA
tetapi KITA adalah DUA orang
yang MERANA

quote from nyanyian hati Trie Utami
KARMAPALA.....

march 15 2007

When You Belive

2006-12-01T09:33:00.000-08:00

Many nights we pray
With no proof anyone could hear
And our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understand
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we know we could

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who know what miracle
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
And now I am standing here
My heart's so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who know what miracle
You can achieve (You can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fear
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see you way safe through the rain
Thought of a still resilient voice
Says love is very near

There can be miracles (miracles)
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who know what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
Just believe
You will when you believe

...

will when You Believe'

the world's still spinning around
and my LIFE still stuck over here
then
WHEN i Believe
could be it's possible I will have a miracle?
Even hope is frail

Nothing Change between us
Getting worst ...
only HOPE that I could do right now
HOPE from the coming of MIRACLEs
shining of my LIFE

There's much to fear
but I should face it with all the risk

L I F E

2005-11-08T04:44:00.000-08:00

Life is a dance

a movement of a rhythms

a movement of directions

a movemnet of stumbles

a movement if missteps

at times SLOW and PRICES
or FAST and WILD

and

Joyous

The juice is not always worth the squeeze

2005-11-07T09:45:00.000-08:00

The juice is not always worth the squeeze
I quote...
that words from my freind's blog.......
He describe what he felt with his life

that's right
and I could relate it
knowing The juice is not always worth the squeeze
it will hurt U a lot
so much pain will we felt
dispointed is the answer .....

BUT
That's life

in some why will not going well as we thought and Unfair for YoU

Recently for almost 2 years
I felt like that
"The juice is not always worth the squeeze....on my "little family"

so much tears in my pillow

It's not as a happy UTOPIA live
that I always ever dreaming on

Or

Some family bLog's said about :

Happiness, Responsibility, Expectation

He said: he was a newly couple wed. I had been waiting, dealing with ups and downs, seeking chances, grabbing the chances, and gladly risking everything. Ceaseless Praise Upon Him.

He have received so many wise words spoken, congratulating cards, emails, messages, phone calls, or simply handshakes, I can only thank all friends, family, and relatives.

When he going back to TUT -Japan for complete his master thesis
This time he come back a long with his wife.

How very luck man' cause
Now, there`s someone who always gives him morning kisses, makes a cup of tasty milk-coffee for me, cooks the best dinner I`ve ever had, and welcomes me home. The road that leads him here never felt easy, but flashing back to what he was months ago, he strongly believe Allah has made everything so much easy for Him.

Now, HE has responsiblity a great deal of responsibility.
and The BEST One is He could describe it with Good representation :

A family life requires me to be responsible for taking the driver`s seat.
There`s a destination.
There`s a target.
And I certainly have to have myself fully capable of driving the car,
to set a good destination,
and to choose a good way to reach it.

There will be much fun and there will be hardships as well during the journey. There might be quarrels and fights, but it always takes two to tango.

That was what he said....
and i'm absolutly agree with HIM
HOw He describe "What is family is same idea for me"
that is why I am Quote what he describa about
"LITTLE HAPPINES FAMILY"

and What he wish for
it's every little family wishfull too....

.......We have set so many plans, and the first thing is surely related to `the third party in the family`. We really expect to have it as soon as possible. :)

Now that I`ve finally had her as my wife, you can never measure how happy I am. :) .........

in the ending of his blog.....
he put that's word How lucky he is
getting what he wants and GOD bless him
finnaly
"The juice is worth the squeeze in his life........................................................................"

But stiLL nOt fOr Me

I still could not find
someday drive our car with kinds of standart procedure to ride on
even now my car is stuck on the garage !!!!

I could pass on my seatbelt
because the car is sometimes not move on
even 1 cm !!!

How come I could make target
because still do not know where we are going on

How come I should choose where is a good way to reach it
because still do not know where is our destination and the next pIt Stop

Should I be patient for the rest of my life ?????
what should I do that words always wishpear in my tears on the pillow

I am LOST and drawn then sink
in the deep deep deep BLUE SEA of ATLANTIC
with Hoping and Pray

SOMEDAYs
The juice wil worth the squeeze on me ................................................................................................

:: letter ::

2005-07-03T05:36:00.000-07:00

it was writen with someone
in his letter long long long time ago.........

sOmewHere in yOur Heart
tHere will Always be a pLace fOr Me
jUst lIke mIne fOr You

I'm Sorry tHat I'm not around
wHen yOu need me tO

Guess i'ts writen doWn in tHe sKy
tHat we can't be tOgether riGht nOw

I still Believe in SoulMate

wHo knoWs
jUst mybe doWn the Line of oUr life

finnaly find .....

2005-07-03T05:32:00.000-07:00

finnally find
since I left Jogja went to ahmedabad

Finnally find
since a long time not seeing each other

Finnaly find
but it's already change

Finnaly find
in diffrent world, word, and langguage

Finnaly find
................................................................

It's aLRIgHT.....cOUNT ON Me

2004-11-04T18:15:00.000-08:00

When life seem hopelles
and you're alone
and No One stay try
tears drops on Your Heart

When You Cann't find
a single reason left to try

So many secret
that you left away
cann't find the deep is feel then
hunt you everyday

a lot of the little Thing
body could not understand

It's Alright

I'll be there

count On mE

Anytime

Anywhere

So Your heart
till the end of this year
Now
will last stand by my side
I will

Suatu senja di Tamansari

2004-11-03T17:48:00.000-08:00

Baju baru di tembok itu
tidak memudarkan kewibawaannya
malah semakin memantapkan
aura keanggunan dan kemegahannya

Bukan polesan lipstik semata
yang terpoles
Namun pemberian roh
yang lebih hidup

Menoreh sejarah baru
untuk kelanggengan yang abadi
tanpa memperkosa sprit tempat
sebagai genius loci
yang telah lama hidup

Malam itu
semakin mengukuhkan posisi mu disana
dan keinginanmu untuk
meneriakan
AKU MASIH INGIN HIDUP 1000 tahun lagi !!!

malam itu di hari itu
suatu senja di TAMANSARI
bersamamu….

3 nove 2004

rangkaian kata itu
tak mengeluarkan liarnya
hanya rangkaian kata
dari sorang diriku
yang ingin berkata

tak ada refrensi
tak ada acuan
hanya rangkaian kata
untuk menggambarkan perasaanku

mungkin aku harus banyak membaca
mungkin aku harus banyak mencari
yang kelak mendewasakan makna perkataanku
tapi itu murni,

terbayang wajah meremehkannya
dari dirnya
terbayang senyum sinis di matanya
ketika membaca itu,
terbayang dirinya
melihatku hanya bisa seperti itu

mana keliaranmu
mana pesan mendalammu
oh...hanya bisa sampai disini saja ????

Tidak
Tidak
untuk saat ini
dan aku tidak akan menyerah

jUst One NigHT

2004-10-24T20:06:00.000-07:00

That's night is soo dark
b o d y n'd m i n d already exhauted
to much words from lip
to much something that could be blow

I'm tired
just wanna scream
searching something
that can be released me

Wanting to be held,
loved,
adored -To be kissed

Needing the reassurance

Those feelings of bliss . . .

Suddenly
it's happened
Not from words but a touch
How dare You !!!!!!
What is That....????!!!!!

Those butterflies in my stomach
And those small cold chill bumps
I'm sick
not in my body
but in my Mind
it's bloddy painfull

it's all done here
No coming back !!!
No More
even I want it

Aun Existe Amor

2004-10-22T20:00:00.000-07:00

Celline Dion

Cuando te adormeces junto a mi
Entonces no me quedan dudas
De que aun existe amor

(When you fall asleep next to me
Then I have no doubt
That love still exists)

La indecisi�Rn que hay en mi
Yo la mandar��a a la luna
Para vivir contigo
La soledad de cada d��a
Que entre l��grimas crec��a
La alejar�� de mi

(The indecision I have in me
I ordered it from the moon
To live with you
The loneliness of each day
That grows between tears
That grows apart from me)

Para amarte a toda costa
Para amarte a cada momento
A pesar de tanto mal
Que gira entorno nuestro

(To love you at all cost
To love you at each moment
Considering all the madness
That runs around us)

Cuando te adormeces junto a mi
Entonces no me quedan dudas
De que aun existe amor
S�� que aun existe amor

(When you fall asleep next to me
Then I have no doubt
That love still exists
Love still exists)

Las discusiones de los dos
Saber qui��n tendr�� la culpa
Que nos importa ya
En nuestro mundo que es muy grande

(The discussions between us
Knowing whom will be blamed
What's important to us
In our world that is so large)

Carino m��o nos amaremos
Mucho mucho m��s...
M��s all�� de la violenc��a
M��s all�� de la locura

(Dear one, we will love each other
Much much more...
Beyond the violence
Beyond the madness)

A pesar de tanto mal
Que no se acabar��

(Considering all the madness
That won't stop)

Cuando te adormeces junto a mi
Entonces no me quedan dudas
De que aun existe amor
S�� que aun existe amor
S�� que aun existe amor

(When you fall asleep next to me
Then I have no doubt
That love still exists
Love still exists
Love still exists)

Para amarte a toda costa
Para amarte a cada momento
A pesar de tanto mal
Que gira entorno nuestro

(To love you at all cost
To love you at each moment
Considering all the madness
That runs around us)

Cuando te adormeces junto a mi
Entonces no me que quedan dudas
De que aun existe amor

Hermano CruzArmendaris

fReE aS a BiRd

2004-10-22T19:17:00.000-07:00

Free As A Bird,
It's the next best thing to be, free as a bird.
Home, home and dry
Like a hummingbird I fly, as a bird on wings

Whatever happened to the life that we once knew
Can we really live without each other
Where did we lose the touch
That seemed to mean so much
It always made me feel so ...

Free As A Bird,
It's the next best thing to be, free as a bird.
Home, home and dry
Like a hummingbird I fly, as a bird on wings
Whatever happened to the life that we once knew
Always made me feel soooo
Free

Free as a bird
It's the next best thing to be
Free as a bird
Free as a bird
Free as a bird
(Lennon/McCartney/Harrison/Starkey)

Yeah...

Free as a bird

cause he was born to be free
searching for happiness

Go gEt Your Wings tO fly
You're wAlKeD on AiR
fElt LiKe YoU wErE dReaMin'
yOu nEvEr thOught it cOuld
BuT it wiLL !!!!
iT feels tHat gooD

sO pLeaSe PuT yOu in LiviNg
sOmeWhere You're GoNNa sTaY
wHen yOu
fInNaly fOunD
tHe meAniNg of 'HappiNeS'

Padhang mBulan

2004-09-30T19:56:00.000-07:00

malam itu di hari itu
padhang mbulan memunculkan egonya
namun terselubungi oleh sang reno

temaramnya lampu

ditengah kota tua

memunculkan rasa mistis

romantika masa lalu

lamat-lamat terdengar dari luar

denting piano dari tangan nan lentik

mengalunkan simfoni lagu indonesia nan mendayu

rasa nasionalis begitu terasa memancar kuat

harum parfum

sutra batik

hak tinggi

bertabur intan permata

tepuk tangan yang riuh

menambah kesan glamornya

padhang mbulan di sebuah gereja tua

malam itu di hari itu

gereja blenduk

menjadi saksi akan datangnya

padhang mbulan

disebuah kota lama

disebuah perhelatan agung

disebuah resital piano nan indah

malam itu di hari itu

aku menikmatinya

fantasi melayang jauh ke masa depan

membayangkan padhang mbulan berikutnya

akankah masih seperti ini

where

2004-09-27T19:59:00.000-07:00

Dimana aku mencari mu
saat ku ingin berbicara dengan mu

Dimana aku mencari mu
saat ku ingin berdebat dengan mu

Dimana aku mencari mu
saat ku ingin menatapmu

Dimana aku mencari mu
saat ku ingin bersisian dengan mu

Dimanaaku mencari mu
saat kurindu selaan mu

Dimana ku harus berteriak
ku harus memaki
ku harus merintih
ku harus tertawa
saat ku tak tahu semuanya
kearah mana ku harus berlari
mencari mu .............................

Tell me

2004-09-27T01:02:00.000-07:00

Flight of imagination
keep warming Me
in this wintry night
and
push me to thingking far away
beyond the sky

K A L A
You can ..................................

Tell me that after sunday is monday
Tell me that in 1 year consists of 365 days
Tell me that after 1 is two

b u t
can yOu ..................................
Tell me How the sun and moon rise in my eyes
Tell me How that the winter winds blow from my heart
Tell me How that a rose garden grow in my chest

No one can explain that !!!!!!!
It is happeend

Let it silence

Silence has to many secrets
and life has too many conquers to do

.....YOU....

2004-09-22T21:57:00.000-07:00

Don’t be nice to me
Without understanding me

Don’t ever pity on me
Without seeing me suffer

Don’t you talk behind me
Without reading between the lines

Fur Kala.....
Don’t even bother to remember me
Only a memory of us