yOU

Never wanted the Stars
Never shoot for the mOon
I like Them rIght wHere tHey Are
all I wAnTed Was YoU

someONES
just Only oNES

night, march 19 2007

The Silent Love

Kita berjalan TERPISAH
tapi BAYANGAN kita berpelukan

kita berjalan di SIANG HARI
tapi BAYANGAN kita sembunyi dari Cahaya

Kita adalah DUA ORANG yang BERBEDA
tetapi bayangan kita berJIWA SERUPA

Bayangan kita adalah SEPASANG KEKASIH
yang BAHAGIA
tetapi KITA adalah DUA orang
yang MERANA

quote from nyanyian hati Trie Utami
KARMAPALA.....

march 15 2007

When You Belive

Many nights we pray
With no proof anyone could hear
And our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understand
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains long
Before we know we could

There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who know what miracle
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seems like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
And now I am standing here
My heart's so full I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

There can be miracles
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who know what miracle
You can achieve (You can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe

They don't always happen when you ask
And it's easy to give in to your fear
But when you're blinded by your pain
Can't see you way safe through the rain
Thought of a still resilient voice
Says love is very near

There can be miracles (miracles)
When you believe (When you believe)
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who know what miracles
You can achieve (You can achieve)
When you believe
Somehow you will
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
You will when you believe
Just believe
You will when you believe

...

will when You Believe'

the world's still spinning around
and my LIFE still stuck over here
then
WHEN i Believe
could be it's possible I will have a miracle?
Even hope is frail

Nothing Change between us
Getting worst ...
only HOPE that I could do right now
HOPE from the coming of MIRACLEs
shining of my LIFE

There's much to fear
but I should face it with all the risk

L I F E

Life is a dance


a movement of a rhythms

a movement of directions

a movemnet of stumbles

a movement if missteps


at times SLOW and PRICES
or FAST and WILD

and

Joyous

The juice is not always worth the squeeze

The juice is not always worth the squeeze
I quote...
that words from my freind's blog.......
He describe what he felt with his life

that's right
and I could relate it
knowing The juice is not always worth the squeeze
it will hurt U a lot
so much pain will we felt
dispointed is the answer .....

BUT
That's life

in some why will not going well as we thought and Unfair for YoU

Recently for almost 2 years
I felt like that
"The juice is not always worth the squeeze....on my "little family"

so much tears in my pillow

It's not as a happy UTOPIA live
that I always ever dreaming on

Or

Some family bLog's said about :

Happiness, Responsibility, Expectation

He said: he was a newly couple wed. I had been waiting, dealing with ups and downs, seeking chances, grabbing the chances, and gladly risking everything. Ceaseless Praise Upon Him.

He have received so many wise words spoken, congratulating cards, emails, messages, phone calls, or simply handshakes, I can only thank all friends, family, and relatives.

When he going back to TUT -Japan for complete his master thesis
This time he come back a long with his wife.

How very luck man' cause
Now, there`s someone who always gives him morning kisses, makes a cup of tasty milk-coffee for me, cooks the best dinner I`ve ever had, and welcomes me home. The road that leads him here never felt easy, but flashing back to what he was months ago, he strongly believe Allah has made everything so much easy for Him.

Now, HE has responsiblity a great deal of responsibility.
and The BEST One is He could describe it with Good representation :

A family life requires me to be responsible for taking the driver`s seat.
There`s a destination.
There`s a target.
And I certainly have to have myself fully capable of driving the car,
to set a good destination,
and to choose a good way to reach it.

There will be much fun and there will be hardships as well during the journey. There might be quarrels and fights, but it always takes two to tango.

That was what he said....
and i'm absolutly agree with HIM
HOw He describe "What is family is same idea for me"
that is why I am Quote what he describa about
"LITTLE HAPPINES FAMILY"

and What he wish for
it's every little family wishfull too....

.......We have set so many plans, and the first thing is surely related to `the third party in the family`. We really expect to have it as soon as possible. :)

Now that I`ve finally had her as my wife, you can never measure how happy I am. :) .........

in the ending of his blog.....
he put that's word How lucky he is
getting what he wants and GOD bless him
finnaly
"The juice is worth the squeeze in his life........................................................................"

But stiLL nOt fOr Me

I still could not find
someday drive our car with kinds of standart procedure to ride on
even now my car is stuck on the garage !!!!

I could pass on my seatbelt
because the car is sometimes not move on
even 1 cm !!!

How come I could make target
because still do not know where we are going on

How come I should choose where is a good way to reach it
because still do not know where is our destination and the next pIt Stop

Should I be patient for the rest of my life ?????
what should I do that words always wishpear in my tears on the pillow

I am LOST and drawn then sink
in the deep deep deep BLUE SEA of ATLANTIC
with Hoping and Pray

SOMEDAYs
The juice wil worth the squeeze on me ................................................................................................

:: letter ::

it was writen with someone
in his letter long long long time ago.........

sOmewHere in yOur Heart
tHere will Always be a pLace fOr Me
jUst lIke mIne fOr You

I'm Sorry tHat I'm not around
wHen yOu need me tO

Guess i'ts writen doWn in tHe sKy
tHat we can't be tOgether riGht nOw

I still Believe in SoulMate

wHo knoWs
jUst mybe doWn the Line of oUr life

finnaly find .....

finnally find
since I left Jogja went to ahmedabad

Finnally find
since a long time not seeing each other

Finnaly find
but it's already change

Finnaly find
in diffrent world, word, and langguage

Finnaly find
................................................................

It's aLRIgHT.....cOUNT ON Me

When life seem hopelles
and you're alone
and No One stay try
tears drops on Your Heart

When You Cann't find
a single reason left to try

So many secret
that you left away
cann't find the deep is feel then
hunt you everyday

a lot of the little Thing
body could not understand

It's Alright

I'll be there

count On mE

Anytime

Anywhere


So Your heart
till the end of this year
Now
will last stand by my side
I will